I am a hopeless romantic and I have fed my feelings with Disney movies and old classics that are full of romance and happy endings. I remember the first time I saw Casablanca (1942) I didn't understand why he didn't run off into the sunset with Ilsa and live happily ever after.
My latest project is heavily based on love and loss. I have been inspired by Shakespeare, old movies and the darker side of being in love. In a nutshell, 'Heartbreak Hell' features the woman we saw in my previous piece, 'Forbidden Love'. She fell in love with a devil in disguise and gave him her heart and soul. The groom jilts her after her transformation into a lonely hawk moth and she is left to die alone. I like to think of this piece as Great Expectations meets A Midsummer Night’s Dream.
I have been trying to build a portfolio of work for a long time. I spend a lot of my time wrestling with my m.e and after many years of completely giving into the devil of chronic illness I decided I really needed something to show for the years I spent cooped up. The first piece was 'Forbidden Love' and due to the work involved it was a complete shock to the system. I spent a long time recovering from that piece and swore I would never spend that amount of time on a piece again. Well, that didn't happen and I started 'Heartbreak Hell' with the same vigour as before. I had to restart this piece 7 times due to having very little energy and this knocked my confidence. I love this piece more than anything else I have done because it reminds me how creating something positive can help inspire better choices.